I get it you are overwhelmed and dealing with a lot .
You are trying to juggle and balance it all . Be a good mom , Be a good friend , be a present partner , show up at work, build your side business and deal with dissapointments, frustration and overwhelming feelings and thoughts.
I get it . It's almost like all of that is just part of being a woman .....that doesn't have to be your reality though . I want to encourage you to get out of your head and to stop talking so much . We have heard what you have to say about your current season/ situation but what does GOD have to say about it ? Have you even invited him in to give his input ? If you have cool, listen to him ...if you haven't now is a good time to bring him in .
God gives invaluable insight , and peaceful perspective . He will not lay anything heavy or ill fitting on you and he won't let you carry all of this alone either. Could it be that things have not shifted for you because you are the one trying to cause the shift and you are not capable of that . But God . God is able to make all grace abound to you so that in all things and all times you will have all that you need ( 2 Corinthians 9:8) .
Wherever you find yourself ..whatever chapter you are in and whatever you are working at I encourage you to invite God in so that he can make it all bearable for you. It may not get easier but with him, it will be much more bearable.
Love you , praying for you .